How Big Is God’s Love?

A psalm written by the men in the Loaves and Fishes addiction treatment program.

When I was in active addiction, while I thought I knew OF GOD, I did not KNOW GOD.  My sinful acts gave me momentary pleasures.  But then I would feel shame and feel unclean.  Instead of turning away from these sinful acts, I kept returning to them and they kept me in bondage tighter and tighter.  How could God love me?

I was mad.  Depressed. Out-of-control. My ego deceived me, told me how great I was. Truly I was lost.  I had grown selfish, willing to take what wasn’t mine.

All of these emotions and experiences created conflict in me.  When I came to Loaves and Fishes, Pastor David Bruce told me, “I’ll give you not what you want, but what you need”.

What could that mean?  What did he think I needed?  He introduced me to God – not the God I thought I knew.  But the God who will forever love me. A love that is unconditional.  A love that is steadfast, gracious, a love that is pure and perfect.  Merciful. A love that has no end.

To KNOW GOD I have to do my part – to actively pray, study the Word of God and be willing for HIM to transform me (Romans 12:2). 

All this time, you searched me, God, and knew me; you know my every move; you know my every action and thought before

I do it.  You give me the decision to accept and love you; or to go my own way. And be lost (Psalm 139: 1-4).

The Bible says, “See how much God loves us, we are called children of God!”.  (1 John 3:1).  We are all sons of God through faith in Christ Jesus (Galatians 3:26). As a true believer, I will be your adopted son, an heir to the heavenly kingdom. But I have to accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior.

My old self has been crucified with Christ.  It is no longer I who live but Christ lives in me.  So I live in this earthly body trusting in the Son of God who loved me and gave His life for me (Galatians 2:20).

The Lord is my strength and my defense.  He has become my salvation (Exodus 15: 2).

How big is God’s Love?  Beyond my imagination a short time ago.